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Pain in my chest

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 12, 2015, 6:07 AM
  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: His music
  • Drinking: Coffee
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My last piece, Bittersweet, was inspired by a lot of things that have happened recently - and a great deal of confusion that has happened since.

I have a friend that I have an interesting relationship with - by interesting I mean, we relate and communicate in ways that other people don't seem to, but it works for us.  I'll admit that I've had strong feelings for him when we were first getting to know each other.  At that time he made himself clear that it wasn't like that for him, and I have since locked those feelings in a box and stuck it on a shelf in the attic, never to be looked at again for fear of losing the friendship (or my mind).
That happened about two years ago, and we have been fairly good friends since.

I won't claim that we were the best of friends and that we shared everything, but there's a good deal of acceptance and hard work to understand each others point of view.  Every once in a while that box in the attic rattles out a reminder of those original feelings, and I distract it with something else; a pretty face; a nice body; a combination of both (which often results in my artwork).  But I found ways around it.  I've grown quite accustom to denying myself my feelings as men I'm attracted to rarely ever return those feelings... as a result I can honestly say I have given up on the concept of finding love in this lifetime...Anyway...

Then 'That Night' happened.  Everyone gets those moments when they, or someone they care for has a little too much to drink and they become more vocal about the things/feelings that they keep hidden.

The things he said and admitted to....It blew my mind.
So, as the saying goes: One thing lead to another...

I won't pretend that I'm ashamed of what happened or that I regret that it did.  In fact the only regret I have is the confusion we're both now going through, which, if I'm correct in my analysis of the timeline of the songs he wrote, their subject and the potential that it may relate to that night - then he is not only confused but also hurting.

So there you have the condensed version of what has happened, and how it relates to the work I have just posted,

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Liz Hearn
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I've always found these difficult, not because I don't know how to describe myself, but because, like artwork I change with the mood of life. I can be utterly colourful to increasingly dark in an incredibly short amount of time.

Mostly I am mellow as I try to be as peaceful as I can in a world full of Chaos and anger, which to the untrained eye, makes me seem plain and boring. Those who are close to me would never call me such, they have seen me at my worst and at my best.

In some ways, I suppose I am still like a teenager going through an identity crisis. Trying to be myself and satisfy everyone at the same time. I know it is an impossible task, but the love I have for those in my life make me want to try...
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ChristianCowgirl116 Featured By Owner May 16, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hello,

If you would like your deviation, touch, posted in Portraits-of-People, you will have to submit it into a different gallery. If you look at the rules it says that only I am able to put deviations into the featured gallery. Try submitting it into the Traditional black and white gallery! :)

I did have to refuse your other submission. Again, in the rules it says that mature content is not accepted.

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